whats right

Hey it.s me I.m still here.  Sometimes I think it should all just be over.  My situation is no job, no car, I live with my husband, daughter and grandchildren by choice, I think, well the daughter and grandchilren are a definite, I think.  Don.t get me wrong I love them with all of my heart, but... and that's a big but how would I feel if I had a life?   Oh yeah I'm 59 and counting.  The counting part seems to go really fast anybody else notice that?  Well any way I like to think of myself as a christian woman although sometimes I'm not sure what that means or requires. That's a whole other subject for another time, although I do think of it as number one on the list.  There's a word for you the "list". I think we all have one but,  but that is all I can think to say.  I entitled this "what"s right" I don't even know where that came from, I'm not even sure I know what that means.  Don"t get me wrong here I love life, I guess that sounds a little funny at this point but never the less it"s true.  I trully look forward to the after life, I know it will be alot easier than this one.  Right now though this is the life I have to deal with.  Maybe I should say I has a car a month ago.  Very bad car accident .  Basically I will survive the other driver not so lucky.  His fault, and he paid for it with his life.  For some reason I do some guilt over this, not sure why other than the fact that it was a hit and run and as he fled I did not wish him well although I did not wish him dead, and thus that adds up to guilt. there's alot more to my story, bbut husbands home so gotta go. That" right Isn"t It......... Added note this should all be taken with a laugh, because I certainly need too and so you should too.